Sunday, January 20, 2008

Hi everyone!! thanks for reading my blog..for those who visits my blog often (: blogging again.

Haix..started from Friday till today, packing..packing..and..MORE PACKING! ROAR!! grrr...i can't stand it anymore. It's just so stressed.

Moving soon. Very soon.

And i haven't started on any of my homework for this weekend!! can u believe it?!?! tml's already the due day for my english presentation and i have not even done it!! ROAR!! grrr...i cant be able to finish my work on time!! im soo gonna get scolding from bombastic woman. Get ready. I just hope she doesn't ask my team to present when im not done with it.

I gtg rush my homework and do it by tonight. Guess wad? later i still have tuition at 4:30 to 6:30..how idiotic can that be? im already not free and i still have to attend tuition today.

tRyIn To HoLd A sMiLe at 5:50 AM

Friday, January 18, 2008

yoyoyo!! i havent blogged for quite awhile le..srys!! i shall blog now then (: (im doing that now though..LOL!)

Yesterday i stayed back in school to do library duty. guessed what happened. THE FIRE ALARM IN MY SCHOOL WENT ON! I was still doing library work at that time..it happened around 4:55++ The alarm scared me lar!! so loud.. =.=''

I wore new school uniform to school on Monday!! YAY!! so nice..finally the school applies to use the real tie instead of a button one. :DD The new school uniform also looked much nicer than the old one.

Haix..these few days i've been so stressful..the class is also not serious this year..still joking and making noise when the teacher is not here. It's so intolerable!

Time for me to go do my homework..too much work to do. :(

tRyIn To HoLd A sMiLe at 1:10 PM

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Had flu, blocked nose and ears for past 2 days!! ROAR!! Using almost all the tissues in the house already..and!! homework was still not done during the weekends cuz of my flu!! ROAR!! Lucky today teacher didn't scold..*heng* LOL. =x

Today was horrendous. Had devotion today which was what we always had every Monday. F&N was next. I handed in my OTP on time..YAY! we did discussions after that. Without noticing the time, it was already recess time. :o

Had 'oily' noodles for recess. after that went to the bookshop and saw that there was a trace of blood leading from the outside of the bookshop to the Green Wall of the school canteen. :o wasn't sure wad was happening then. didn't want to care much too as time was up for the next lesson.

Maths lesson time. Got a 'scolding' from teacher for coming back late. :o ..it wasn't realli serious though :D so no worries!! (: for chem we didn't do much also..lolx. After dat it was english lesson. we were given a argumentative worksheet which i dunno how to do =.='' so i did my chinese homework..LOL. =x

12:30, it was social stds time..did so much writing..ROAR! was so tired that time. *writing, writing and more writing* LUNCH TIME!! didnt go to eat lunch though..hehe..den it was chinese time..teacher let us hear recording of the textbook lesson den let us do comprehension passage and it was the end of sch time lo! YAY! so pissed after that..dun wanna talk about it also.

ending here..cya all then (:

tRyIn To HoLd A sMiLe at 12:10 PM

Monday, January 14, 2008

Given up already..so i shall also not do anything. (: why should i waste my time worrying about all these?

worries = time wasted.

so why waste my time worrying? My life has many other things waiting for me to have fun and enjoy with. (:

For once again, i say, im not a thief, so do not use the word steal on me.

For those people who have tried to help, its being appreciated. Thanks. (:

tRyIn To HoLd A sMiLe at 2:58 AM

Sunday, January 13, 2008

You can blame me for being harsh or evil to you. If i've hurt you from the previous post, i say, im sorry. But i realli want to say out what is realli blocking my heart from beating. (: P.S. i am not a thief, so do not use the word steal.

tRyIn To HoLd A sMiLe at 12:03 AM

Friday, January 11, 2008

blogging now with numb feelings? i realli do not know what are you thinking. I have my own thinking, u have ur own rite? so..i can't read your mind..and u can't read mine. So..how do you noe wad im thinking, or maybe doing?

I hate being accused and wronged for wad i didn't do. I hate ppl who assumes things about me for what I am not.

I didn't ask you to be sad over me, so there isnt a need for you to be sad because of me. I'm all the while very happy as I always am. I didnt assume it that nobody cared about me in this world. There is love coming from my Mama, my sis and all the friends around me. Today, I am being loved by my mates without any reasons. :o they said they loved me? lolx. i dunno how to answer to that though.. :o

There is not a need for you to not be speaking cuz im quiet. The mouth is yours, i cant control it cuz im not God. I didn't ask you devote your whole life to me. DO NOT STUFF WORDS INTO MY MOUTH!

I didnt make any promises to you. Those 'promises' were what you assumed yourself without my consent? I am born with a hole in my precious heart, therefore, to me, its a sensitive organ to my body. I do not wish that you break it for me nor use it as a toy. please. I'm being sensitive to MY OWN feelings, its because i do not want anyone to hurt me again. This time the cut in my heart is deep. I do not dare to trust anyone again. If i were to LEARN, i wouldn't need YOU to tell ME that i need to.

I didnt give up anything for wad i own now, its the time with you that makes me give this up. I didn't ask you to give your all. For another time, i say this again, DO NOT STUFF WORDS INTO MY MOUTH! if you'd treasure this relationship, you'd have changed when you've noticed this relationship going from bad to worse. I've given my all and tried my best to save the relationship with you, but i'd think, you didnt care much.

Say wadever you want to say about me, the most or the worse, i will hate and dislike you. so please, i've already said, try it if you dare.

I tried so hard and got so far but in the end it doesn't even matter, I had to fall and lose it all, but in the end, it doesn't even matter~

tRyIn To HoLd A sMiLe at 11:08 PM

Wednesday, January 9, 2008

im blogging now and this is the 3rd post im posting in a day. im blogging cuz now im realli very sad. realli realli sad. realli realli realli sad. i wanna cry. i've cried for 15 minutes after i ate my dinner. almost vomitted. i realli realli hate my father. i do not understand why he keeps misunderstanding me. i realli cant stand this misunderstanding. he's been misunderstanding me since young. i realli hate and dislike him alot. im facing my 'N's this year and im already stressed about it. he is giving me more stress by giving me scolding and more scolding, misunderstands me and more misunderstanding. should i hate myself or actually hate him?

i realli love my MaMa. She's always there for me when i'm being misunderstood from him. The hug from her realli gives me love and warmth. Thanks Mama. I love you. (:

tRyIn To HoLd A sMiLe at 10:32 PM

Fake feelings and intentions are not needed.

tRyIn To HoLd A sMiLe at 5:04 PM

yoyoyo!! im back again ppl! haha! okay..today i shall blog about my time at sch today.

Today I was almost late for sch..so lucky i wasn't. :D reached the sch abt 7:10 leh~ LOL! and the bookshop queue today was short!! i rushed back to class to put my bag then quickly rushed back to the bookshop to buy the stuff that i needed =x .

In the end like almost everything i needed for sch dun have.. =.=! so stupid..so i onli bought uniform..BUT the thing is..the sch uniform left the smallest size of 36..i want 34!! ROAR!! dun have..den have to wait lor..so ended up onli buying the sch tie and badge. :0

After that went for assembly in the hall cuz it rained den the parade ground was wet. After the national anthem, pledge n all..it was contact time with teacher in class..but it was spent at the hall and the sch arranged programme for contact time. Shan't talk abt assembly le.

After assembly finish le, it was chinese lessons..my teacher went for the Sec 3 camp so she wasn't in present in sch..LESSON FREE!! yeah~ so i was roaming around the class..walking here walking dere..den toking to my classmates and blabla. LOL.

10:00AM, recess time. ate 'lor mai kai', which is smth like so called 'sticky' rice with meat at the bottom. long time nvr eat dat le :0. also went to buy roti prata..u will be wondering: woah, u eat so much. Actually im not. HAHA! cos i was too hungry..so i sort of bought more food. normally i dun eat that much. so dun worry..im not fat. HAHA!

OHOH!! then after recess it was F&N time. my teacher told me that today we were gonna receive our 'N' Level coursework leh! so FREAKY!! ehh..my teacher also told me cannot show or tell anyone anything about the coursework cuz it's confidential. :0 !

so anyways, had F&N lesson today for 5 periods..SO LONG!! after F&N was History lesson. Rushed back after F&N lesson ended den rush to History class. guess wad? rushed to History class i still kena scolding from teacher.. -.-ll la. AND tml nid to stay back for CCA. -.-ll again.

Anyway, i will end here for today..cos got alot of things to do today..tml still hav to stay back at sch till 5PM ==!! see ya'll then.

tRyIn To HoLd A sMiLe at 3:46 PM

Monday, January 7, 2008

I do not need you to fake your feelings on me. If you think its not worth it, then just forget it and the friendship is gone. there's nothing to talk about.

If you do not care about this, why should I? I am not the person that controls this cos im not God? I wouldnt waste my time nor give up my life over this thing.

Given up friendship.

tRyIn To HoLd A sMiLe at 10:10 PM

Sunday, January 6, 2008

Today's a day which students have to prepare for tml's school..HAHA! ok, its lame. Haven't done my chinese homework that was given to me like, uhhh, 100 days ago? HAHA! Just joking ppl. I haven't done the homework given to me last week. I shall do it after i finish blogging then.

haix..tomorrow is a long day man~ ..sch's gonna end at 3 i guess? oh no..i seemed to have lost my timetable and it's onli now that i realised it is missing.. -.-'' SAVE ME PLS! i gtg find my timetable le..if not it's too late for me to ask my friends for tml's timetable..see ya.. ><''

tRyIn To HoLd A sMiLe at 8:52 PM

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

School Reopens..

YOYOYO! hello!! long time nvr blog luh..srys~ ><'' Now sch reopen luh..so less time to blog cos have to attend sch and do other stuff n all..so i might not be blogging much le..unless its the holidays or i'll blog when i have something to blog or i'll blog when i have time to do so okay? so...i'll talk to u soon..? lolx..see ya all~ (:

tRyIn To HoLd A sMiLe at 6:15 PM