Friday, January 11, 2008
blogging now with numb feelings? i realli do not know what are you thinking. I have my own thinking, u have ur own rite? so..i can't read your mind..and u can't read mine. So..how do you noe wad im thinking, or maybe doing?
I hate being accused and wronged for wad i didn't do. I hate ppl who assumes things about me for what I am not.
I didn't ask you to be sad over me, so there isnt a need for you to be sad because of me. I'm all the while very happy as I always am. I didnt assume it that nobody cared about me in this world. There is love coming from my Mama, my sis and all the friends around me. Today, I am being loved by my mates without any reasons. :o they said they loved me? lolx. i dunno how to answer to that though.. :o
There is not a need for you to not be speaking cuz im quiet. The mouth is yours, i cant control it cuz im not God. I didn't ask you devote your whole life to me. DO NOT STUFF WORDS INTO MY MOUTH!
I didnt make any promises to you. Those 'promises' were what you assumed yourself without my consent? I am born with a hole in my precious heart, therefore, to me, its a sensitive organ to my body. I do not wish that you break it for me nor use it as a toy. please. I'm being sensitive to MY OWN feelings, its because i do not want anyone to hurt me again. This time the cut in my heart is deep. I do not dare to trust anyone again. If i were to LEARN, i wouldn't need YOU to tell ME that i need to.
I didnt give up anything for wad i own now, its the time with you that makes me give this up. I didn't ask you to give your all. For another time, i say this again, DO NOT STUFF WORDS INTO MY MOUTH! if you'd treasure this relationship, you'd have changed when you've noticed this relationship going from bad to worse. I've given my all and tried my best to save the relationship with you, but i'd think, you didnt care much.
Say wadever you want to say about me, the most or the worse, i will hate and dislike you. so please, i've already said, try it if you dare.
I tried so hard and got so far but in the end it doesn't even matter, I had to fall and lose it all, but in the end, it doesn't even matter~
tRyIn To HoLd A sMiLe at 11:08 PM